I had always wanted to be a surrogate. Well, maybe not always, but for a very long time. The desire surfaced at the age of about 20 after I had a doctor tell me that I may or may not be able to conceive children. From that moment, I decided that if I could indeed have children of my own, I wanted to be able to help a family less fortunate do the same via surrogacy. I was so passionate about this that I even mentioned it to my serious boyfriend at the time (who ended up lucky enough to marry me) as something that I wanted to pursue after creating a family of my own. What a great guy I had - he was on board!! WooHoo!
Although it was never really mentioned again, it was still always in the back of my mind. My husband and I went on to get married and have 2 very precious and incredibly gorgeous children - a boy and a girl; our quintessential American family. Much to our disbelief, I was able to conceive VERY easily. So easily that our 2nd child was a bit of a "surprise" I guess you could say. My son was only 9 months old when we learned of our newest journey. We welcomed the surprise with open arms (after shedding a few tears of "what?" "how?" "can we do this?" of course). We got through it and wouldn't have changed a thing.
It had been about a year and a half since giving birth to my daughter when I finally felt "ready" to begin looking into becoming a surrogate. I broached the topic with my husband who was kind of caught off guard with it. He explained that he thought that I had forgotten about it. I quickly told him I hadn't and reminded him that he was supportive of it before we were even married. I respect his reservations -- we have a family now to think of, you are an integral part of our family; the kids need you, what if this doesn't work out?, what if you become ill?, what if....? My answer to his concerns was simple: I want to do this. I want to help a family share in the gift we were so blessed to receive from God - becoming parents. It took some convincing and reassurance, but he ultimately got on board once again and gave me his blessing to proceed.
I began researching agencies for surrogacy. I was astounded by the numerous possibilities. I was overwhelmed, but eager to do this. I knew what I wanted out of this journey and for whom I wanted to do this. I just needed the right agency to find the family for me. Although there are several options for surrogacy agencies, I kept going back to the same website - over and over and over again. I felt a connection. And that is what I needed.
At about 1pm on August 23, 2012, I submitted my application to become a gestational carrier with Circle Surrogacy.